The first time was after my workout with Danny. It was a really tough training session, and the final circuit included three minutes on the elliptical at level 10, which is killer. I was happy that I survived, but when I got to the car, I was hot, tired and grumpy. As I got in the car, I muttered out loud,”What is he thinking, putting a 200+ pound girl on the elliptical at level 10?” And it actually took me a minute or two to realize that I am no longer that girl!
Next was later that day. I was at a meeting and told one of my friends how cute I thought this guy in the meeting was, but that “I bet he doesn’t like big girls, though.” Now, I am much thinner, but I think in the eyes of most men, I’m still considered a “big girl.” I think for a lot of guys, anything over 110 lbs. is a big girl. At any rate, I was still seeing myself as I was, not as I am now.
I’m not ready to write a dissertation on this or anything, but it is on my mind. I definitely want to talk to Traci about this on Wednesday, and maybe I’ll Google it, too. Have you been through a similar situation? How did you handle it?