A year ago today, I was just waking up and coming back to consciousness from my ruptured aneurysm. It had been about two weeks, and it was around my sister’s birthday. I remember my boss offering to buy her a birthday gift from me. I was clueless. I couldn’t figure out where I was or what had happened, much less what to get Sister for her birthday.
A year later, I’m still trying to figure out what to get Sister for her birthday. But everything else is better. I’ve recovered well, with the exception of my immobile vocal cords and soft, raspy voice. I’m back at work full-time, have been since late September. The dullness in my fingertips has subsided, and I hardly even notice it now.
But there are still a few things I need to work on:
- I’m quite unhappy with my fitness limitations. I’ve gone from doing an hour on the elliptical before the aneurysm to five minutes on the treadmill.
- I’m also living by the seat of my pants at the house and in my bedroom; I don’t feel like I’ve had it together since I came back to my house in August.
- I’ve strayed a bit from my “clean eating,” and I still need to get back in the kitchen on a regular basis.
I was sharing this with a friend today, when she reminded me that it had only been a year, that I was being too tough on myself. Too tough on myself? Yes. I always have been. Then almost on cue, I found a great article in my Positively Positive daily email today about that very thing: Are You Pushing Yourself Too Hard?
You don’t have to be recovering from a ruptured aneurysm like me to push yourself too hard. As women, we all do it. That’s why I wanted to share Positively Positive’s three steps to release the pressure when you’re pushing yourself too hard.
- Admit you are pushing yourself too hard – Say out loud (because you need to hear this from yourself): “I am pushing myself too hard to…”
- Re-set your expectations. Close your eyes and take a breath. Ask yourself, “What would ENOUGH look like?”
- Give yourself permission to just do enough. No more. No less. Just enough.
The article reminds us when pressure and overwhelm come knocking on your door, remember that you have the choice to let them in. Assess the situation, use the three step process above and ask yourself what might need to change or adjust in order for you to feel less stress and more joy, rest and harmony through the process.
Fitness limitations? Yeah, I’ve got ‘em. A year ago, I wasn’t even walking. So for now, working out twice a week is enough to help me rebuild my strength. Living by the seat of my pants? Yes, I still have some unpacking and organizing to do. I was away from home for five months, and it’s taking me a while to settle back in. I’m getting it done a little at a time, and that’s okay. Not eating perfectly? I can make improvements in small steps, and it will be okay. As long as I have food to eat and don’t fall back into the fast food trap, I will survive fine.